End Of Junior Year

I am officially now a senior in my high school.  Now that I'm a senior, it's really strange to see time moving so fast.  I remember going into high school as a freshman fall of 2012,  I was a confused and  freshman entering a whole new world with older, and taller kids around me with really big hallways.  The fact that time is going so fast makes me really scared for what's ahead.

I know I'm still young, but a year from now I will be entering college, and I really don't know what's ahead.   In the end, this is life.  Because life keeps going, I have to stream along with it.  There are some things I wish I could of changed when I was younger such as talking to more people and coming out of my shell.

I have always been a socially awkward/shy girl, so most people don't really know who I am. As a result of that, people often made assumptions, and spread rumors about who they think I am.  Hopefully this year, I will finally get to put all of that behind me and show the world who Samantha really is.

Besides that, I also wish I took certain classes during my underclassmen years.  I guess I couldn't really explore other classes due to my schedule and the school requirements.  It also goes back to my socialization issues with the other kids in school.  Because of those reasons, I couldn't really explore other classes.

I know I made these mistakes in the past, but I want to move on and have a new leaf.  Next September, I will make it a habit to be more outgoing and to take more chances.  Here's to the future!

Why Life Is Precious

It's been a while since I made a blog post.  Within these past weeks, lots of things have happened to me.  Mostly good things, and minimal bad things.  In this post, I wanted to take the time to write about my fish that died a few weeks ago.  Her name was Beauty.

Beauty was a beta fish that was very unique to the eye.  She had a cheerful personality, and she always lived life to the fullest and with bliss despite being a fish.  Beauty had a very unusual feature for a fish.  Beauty had a deformity on her back.  Despite her deformity, she always acted like a normal fish.

When she died on my birthday, it really hit me emotionally.  Her death made me realize how precious we all are on this planet, and the fact that we have to live out our life the the maximum.  If you have something you want to do now, don't sit on the sidelines.

I'm trying to live out my dreams and become a signed music artist and movie actress.  I may not have a agent, manager, or record label backing me, but I will not give up until one day someone wants to sign me.  So for now, I have used the computer as my best resource.

In this world, you have to try to live the best you can.  I know there are many distractions for some people my age such as fitting in, going to parties,  and boyfriends/girlfriends, but there is so much in the entire earth besides socialization.

Life is very scary, but we need to take chances in the world.  If we don't, our hearts become black and we become hermits.   Thank you so much Beauty. You were a incredible creature and you will never be forgotten.  I will try the best I can to spread this message to the world about living life to the fullest.

Improv and Conversations

I was in deep thought today, and I thought about how conversations are like improv.  Think about this, improv is not scripted, and so are conversations.  In improv you need to always to be on the spot and improvise.  Same with convos!  And if the improv or convo doesn't finish right, it gets plain awkward.  It's so crazy how improv is incorporated in our lives like that.  What else is incorporated in our lives that is art related?  Comment below!

Vent

Hi Guys!  It's been a REALLY long time since I last posted a blog post.  Anyways, I hope you can forgive me for that.  A few days ago, I joined this app called Vent.  What is Vent?

Vent is an amazing social app that is a community more than a typical app.  Even though the app is only a few months old, it's becoming really popular. The app is called "Vent" because a person can make statuses and vent about their life.

I've made some friends off the app, and everyone is nice and supportive to each other.  When you make a status which is also known as a "Vent", there is an option where you press can either "Hug", "Laugh", or "WTF".  I don't really saying that word because it is a curse word, but that is an option.  These options are usually there to show your reaction.

If you can, please check out this amazing app.  You will not regret it!

Human Beings

I noticed that for some reason in high school, there seems to be a pressure for dating. It seems like if you don't date, people assume you're either lesbian or gay.  In all honesty, that's so stupid.  A guy or girl isn't lesbian or gay because they don't date.  Maybe there are family rules, they could be possibly shy, or maybe are not attracted to anybody in school because nobody has perked their interest, or even the slight possibility of being asexual ( Sexual Orientation where one is not attracted to any gender.)


It genuinely bothers me that some people in my school make assumptions like this.  It's just general ignorance.  If we all took the time to get to know people, maybe we wouldn't have rumors like this.  Also, nothing is wrong with anybody that is gay/lesbian/trans.  They are their own human beings just like us.  This is the same issue that people with mental disorders and disabilities deal with.

People with a disability or mental disorder face discrimination all the time.  It's disgusting.
Humans are scared of the unknown, and say things because they don't want to face the unknown.  Humanity needs to face the unknown, and accept that not everything will be same color that they wish to see.

Mental Illnesses in Society

Something I notice in society is that we overlook how serious mental illness really is.  Mental illnesses are something that people struggle with in society.  Mental illnesses are like being in a warped reality, but at the same time there is a cryptic beauty that comes with being mentally ill.

When one is mentally sick,they often see a different type of reality.  In a way, it's almost like a painting.  There are many colors in a painting.  When one is mentally ill, they have many shades in their life.

The Negative: A person may feel like your whole life is crashing down, and they want to fall in a deep hole and cry, and they never want to wake up.  Everything is extreme,they feel anxious, and all They see is shades of darkness.


The Positive: They feel like they're are walking on a cloud, they feel amazing, empowered, nothing can stop them at all.  they feel like they're walking in a trail of flowers, and everything is magical.

In Between:  they feel completely calm.

Mental illnesses are just as serious as physical diseases.  It may not feel physical pain in one's eyes, but one will  feel so many emotions and so many views of the world.  The world seems really scared to accept that mental illnesses are just as serious as a regular, physical diseases.  The world needs to give people monthly psychiatric evaluations, or at least someone to talk to.


If the world did things like that, we wouldn't have things such as the airplane incident that just happened in Germany, the Boston Bombing, and Sandy Hook.  All of these people had mental illnesses.

Mental illnesses are not the only problem.  In this world, learning disabilities and autism spectrum disorders are  also overlooked.  Just because one individual is slow, it doesn't mean they are incompetent.  They have a bit of a harder time processing than others because of a few brain defects.  They're just average people like all of us.  Unfortunately, there are many people that don't have the patience to tolerate their defects.


If there is anybody that is reading this that has any mental disorder, autistic disorder, or learning disability, I just want to say you are so strong inside and beautiful.  Life is really hard if one individual has anything in these categories. Continue staying strong and keep living life the best you can.

Something I Really Want To Do

We all have things we want to try to do.  As for myself,  I would like to tap more into filmmaking or creating a play and actually directing.  I mean, I am no stranger to filmmaking.   For the past two years, I have been involved in a certain class at my school that creates films, and I really enjoy doing it.  I have many ideas that I want to bring to life, and it would be really great for me to create at least more than one product.  Hmm..  Who knows?  Maybe I will try one of those soon in the near future!