Vent

Hi Guys!  It's been a REALLY long time since I last posted a blog post.  Anyways, I hope you can forgive me for that.  A few days ago, I joined this app called Vent.  What is Vent?

Vent is an amazing social app that is a community more than a typical app.  Even though the app is only a few months old, it's becoming really popular. The app is called "Vent" because a person can make statuses and vent about their life.

I've made some friends off the app, and everyone is nice and supportive to each other.  When you make a status which is also known as a "Vent", there is an option where you press can either "Hug", "Laugh", or "WTF".  I don't really saying that word because it is a curse word, but that is an option.  These options are usually there to show your reaction.

If you can, please check out this amazing app.  You will not regret it!

Human Beings

I noticed that for some reason in high school, there seems to be a pressure for dating. It seems like if you don't date, people assume you're either lesbian or gay.  In all honesty, that's so stupid.  A guy or girl isn't lesbian or gay because they don't date.  Maybe there are family rules, they could be possibly shy, or maybe are not attracted to anybody in school because nobody has perked their interest, or even the slight possibility of being asexual ( Sexual Orientation where one is not attracted to any gender.)


It genuinely bothers me that some people in my school make assumptions like this.  It's just general ignorance.  If we all took the time to get to know people, maybe we wouldn't have rumors like this.  Also, nothing is wrong with anybody that is gay/lesbian/trans.  They are their own human beings just like us.  This is the same issue that people with mental disorders and disabilities deal with.

People with a disability or mental disorder face discrimination all the time.  It's disgusting.
Humans are scared of the unknown, and say things because they don't want to face the unknown.  Humanity needs to face the unknown, and accept that not everything will be same color that they wish to see.

Mental Illnesses in Society

Something I notice in society is that we overlook how serious mental illness really is.  Mental illnesses are something that people struggle with in society.  Mental illnesses are like being in a warped reality, but at the same time there is a cryptic beauty that comes with being mentally ill.

When one is mentally sick,they often see a different type of reality.  In a way, it's almost like a painting.  There are many colors in a painting.  When one is mentally ill, they have many shades in their life.

The Negative: A person may feel like your whole life is crashing down, and they want to fall in a deep hole and cry, and they never want to wake up.  Everything is extreme,they feel anxious, and all They see is shades of darkness.


The Positive: They feel like they're are walking on a cloud, they feel amazing, empowered, nothing can stop them at all.  they feel like they're walking in a trail of flowers, and everything is magical.

In Between:  they feel completely calm.

Mental illnesses are just as serious as physical diseases.  It may not feel physical pain in one's eyes, but one will  feel so many emotions and so many views of the world.  The world seems really scared to accept that mental illnesses are just as serious as a regular, physical diseases.  The world needs to give people monthly psychiatric evaluations, or at least someone to talk to.


If the world did things like that, we wouldn't have things such as the airplane incident that just happened in Germany, the Boston Bombing, and Sandy Hook.  All of these people had mental illnesses.

Mental illnesses are not the only problem.  In this world, learning disabilities and autism spectrum disorders are  also overlooked.  Just because one individual is slow, it doesn't mean they are incompetent.  They have a bit of a harder time processing than others because of a few brain defects.  They're just average people like all of us.  Unfortunately, there are many people that don't have the patience to tolerate their defects.


If there is anybody that is reading this that has any mental disorder, autistic disorder, or learning disability, I just want to say you are so strong inside and beautiful.  Life is really hard if one individual has anything in these categories. Continue staying strong and keep living life the best you can.

Something I Really Want To Do

We all have things we want to try to do.  As for myself,  I would like to tap more into filmmaking or creating a play and actually directing.  I mean, I am no stranger to filmmaking.   For the past two years, I have been involved in a certain class at my school that creates films, and I really enjoy doing it.  I have many ideas that I want to bring to life, and it would be really great for me to create at least more than one product.  Hmm..  Who knows?  Maybe I will try one of those soon in the near future!

The Girl

Her inner heart aches.  Life is such a complicated ride to her.  She often stares into the rippling water and asks herself why was she born this way.  No matter how many times she tries to cover up her inner, it always comes back to haunt her.  When nobody looks, teardrops of nothingness always stream down her face.

She was born looking normal, but she isn't normal deep inside.  When she talks to people, there is always a mask on her face.  She can never tell if anything is good, or if anything is wrong.  She can never tell if she's being rude, or mean, or immature.  She always tries to hide her inner  by acting spontaneous, ditsy, quiet, and polite, or drawn to her phone typing away.

Unfortunately, not everybody understands her inner problem.  Many people are mean to her.  They always try to harm her in so many ways.  They chant and shout names in the hallways, they spread rumors, tease her, and treat her like she is a piece of garbage.  They judge her just because they don't know.

Sometimes she cries herself to sleep because she just wants all the pain to stop.  She often tries to hide her face to avoid people judging her.  All of her feelings are tied in her phone because writing is how she escapes the world.   The only thing she has ever asked for was to be understood.

This world is harsh to her just because she views the world in a different way.  Even though the others  view it one way, it's very hard to grip on to the other way.  Maybe she's slow, maybe she can't grip on immediately, but it doesn't mean anything bad.  All the people have done is just made her sad.

Just because she has certain quirks, it doesn't make her bad,  or incompetent. She's never been who the world believes she is.  When she's with strangers, she doesn't feel that much of a danger.  They just met her, and they don't know her at all.  When she goes back into that dreaded brick building, everybody seems to know her.  They think they can read her like a open book,

When she is not meeting strangers and dealing with peers, she is often applauded for the talent she has.  Deep down she believes things will get better, and one day everybody will forget who she used to be.  Instead she will be viewed as a queen.

Valentine's Day

It's that time of the year again.  I know Valentine's day is supposed to have a good meaning behind it, but I feel like that meaning was ruined because of Marketers and business people.  This is the one holiday for overcharged candy, flowers, jewelry, and going out for a bite at a restaurant.  But in all reality, is this such a significant holiday?  Do we really need a holiday to express our "love" for someone?

 Also, what about all of the single people that don't have Valentines?  The ones that don't have Valentine's feel bad that they don't have anyone in their life.  It's almost like society will force you to make Valentine's Day a fiasco for the ones that have someone, and then the ones that are single are upset.

Honestly, if you even think about it, having a date with that special guy/girl is equivalent to any Valentine's Day.  The only difference is, they are not in a brainwashed society state, and nothing is overpriced. What do you think of Valentine's Day?  Comment below!

Her Eyes

What is in her eyes?  What do her eyes say?  She’s quite beautiful in the moonlight when she’s lifted up.   Her eyes are a distorted reality where she feels everything is a black and white path.  Sometimes everything is ok, and it feels like a shooting star.  But sometimes she feels like she’s falling down.  She’s sick of being someone she’s not to the outer world.  She screams for spring to come again, and she wants time to be reversed.

Behind her green-brown eyes, she wants to feel like a human.  She wants to be that dancing swan that has been covered up for millenniums.  Her heart has become black.  She expresses herself through words and her imagination.  At night she dreams of memories from another time where she was actually singing.  Sometimes she feels like she is a 5 year old in a 16 year old body.  She’s always been blinded from the world, since birth.

She often hides herself behind objects that possess her emotions.  Those objects take her away from her reality, and it engulfs her in comfort. When she wakes up in the morning, she walks to the door, and walks out, and is in a sleep trance.  When she gets to the building, her mask starts to form quickly as if leaves are falling down on a tree.  She takes a mental sigh, and continues walking through the building.  She’s in a building with people that she’s known for centuries and could read like a book, but they choose to not know her.

The months and weeks continue, and she now drops deep down into the ocean.  She wakes up on a beautiful island by the time spring has arrived.  On the island, everything is positive.  All of the darkness in her soul starts to leave.  She now feels more confident, she becomes more talkative, and happy.  When she wakes up in the morning, she feels the sunshine hit her icy cold face, and she feels the warmth.

When she walks right into that building, everyone gives her a whole hearted hello, and she feels warm.  She’s not the sad girl anymore, she doesn't feel blind either.  She has arrived.